Its been awhile

I've move to dayre instead of blogging it here as I don't often use my laptop so dayre its more convenient for me. Just read back whatever I blog, so much memories. Things don't actually stay the same anymore, but I am still glad things once happened be it good or bad because some makes me happy and some taught me a lesson. Maybe I learn to grow stronger, smarter. Time is passing too quickly, and that's not a bad thing. Life hasn't been exciting because beside studying and working there's nothing else beside sleeping. I feel that as I grow older I will rather staying at home then hanging out. I'm just tired. I need some sleep, it will be good if I could sleep forever.


" Memories, just stays within you even its been a long time. Whether you want to forget not, it still stay."

I'm back

Hi I'm back, its been long since I last blogged and I decide to blog to keep it alive. Its been the 11 week of school. 4 weeks till its over, can't wait for sep holidays already. So many things to do during this period of time, UTS and PP events. Everything just come all at once, I really need a break. Everything's fine for me I guess? So tired of being me sometimes. I wish I could just sleep in forever. I don't know whether if I should feel happy or am I suppose to be sad? I don't even know how I feel. Am I really happy with what I am now? Sigh, I never think of the consequences before doing certain things. 

Its been long

It's been quite sometime ever since i last update my blog. So I am back here again. Its ending of may, how time files half of the year is almost gone. Started year 2 of my poly life, new modules and some of it are really difficult can't wait to get over with this semester because I am excited for practical!  

It been 4 months, ever since you left me. I really don't know how i feel now. I promise to get over, but that doesn't mean I don't feel hurt anymore. I still re read all the conversation we had and some made me smile yet some made me cry. We had good times, yet tough times like arguing over small matters but then back to how we use to be again but then this time round was different we didn't get back to how we used to be. You left me, without a reason. I always know things happened for a reason but then I do not know what are the reason are. Well, maybe feelings change and you have find someone better. But it's really sad, that when I am trying so hard, being replaced by someone else. I didn't expect things to happen so sudden. I thought writing you the letter and waiting 2 hrs outside your house would make things change but then it didn't. That was probably the last hug. All I know that my effort was wasted and  I found out more things that I shouldn't have known. I was really disappointed with the things you said on your private twitter. I know i'm too dumb for you, but if you said that aren't you dumb as well for falling for me from the start? Things happen just too quickly I guess. You've no idea how many times I cried because of you, how many heartaches I had, how many times I want to text you but i didn't, how many times I was drunk to run away from this sadness. You don't even know at all, yet seeing you happy make me even worse. But to be honest, I swear I am the happiest person ever during that period of time because nobody treat me that well and sweet. I really thought I had someone to rely on from then, but it was just a temporary happiness. Maybe its wrong from the start, I did not regret the choices I made. Because I know I was really happy and I think you are happy too.  Thanks for the time from December till Jan. The 1 month I was really happy I swear, and those memories will all stay with me. I promise to be the keeper for the memories even if you don't remember at all. Thanks for appearing in my life for a short period of time. Maybe it was all wrong for the start.

Its been 4 years ever since dad leave us. I really miss his presence. Miss how he always pampered us, buying KFC delivery for supper, miss how how he always say joke to us, fetching us to school in the morning. I don't want him to disappear in my memory. The time with you isn't enough, I am sorry for the things I have done. I promise you that as the elder sister I will take care of this family. I hope you're doing fine. You're always in our heart no matter where you are. We love you pa. I know that you are always up there looking at how we are now. Don't worry, we are all fine. 4 years passed, so quickly really miss you. It will be great if you are still here with us. Love you dad always.